If I need something

If I can't paint,I walk around.

Recently,I'm always walking.

It's means I can't paint.Bad symptom.

In the movie "Kiki's delivery service"(by Hayao Miyazaki@1989)
comes on a girl of artist.

I really like the scenes of Kiki&the girl,I watched that again and again when I depressed.

Even though I can't be painted,I just stroll.
I don't think any more.
With my i pod.
And then,Suddenly I can notice something,like about music or friends or image.

Somehow this situation is very difficult still now.

Anything don't change if I crying or struggling.
But it nobody's fault.Just myself.
Very hard but I think it's very necessity for my art life at any time.